In church last week, I was sitting with Rich & Misty before the service started. There's always music playing during that time and one of the songs was "Live Like We're Dying" by Kris Allen. We were talking about the song and got to talking about the message a bit.
Now, I really like the idea of living fearlessly. A lot. We spend a lot of time living cautious, careful lives and as a result, we miss out on a lot of opportunities to form relationships, to pursue dreams, to extend grace. So in one sense, I totally get behind the message of the song.
But I don't think I like the title.
One of my favorite movies is The Shawshank Redemption (and it's another reason why Stephen King will reign supreme in my heart, even though the short story isn't nearly as powerful as the movie - still pretty amazing). I love the whole idea of freedom (physical, emotional, spiritual) and this movie just deals that up in spades.
There's something about that sentiment that resonates much more closely to my heart. That we have a choice between living and dying.
I think the reason I don't want to live like I'm dying is because that seems to have this ulterior motive. I'm only making these choices because I have a limited amount of time available. I'm only being nice because I'm trying to make good before I'm judged. Not that any of those are necessarily bad things, but I just wonder if there are better reasons to do things.
To play with my kids just because they asked me to and they're pretty fun to hang out with.
To talk to my husband because I love hearing what's on his mind and finding out all of the new ways that he can amaze me.
To grab tiramisu with a friend because we love the way it looks and tastes.
To make music because it's fun and it feeds my soul.
To write because it might make someone look at an issue in a way they hadn't considered before.